The Lonely Position Of Neutral

Trust Company The Lonely Position Of Neutral Lyrics
1.Downfall

Fear in me so deep
It gets the best of me
In the fear I fall
Here it comes face to face with me
Here I stand
Hold back so no one can see
I feel these wounds
Step down...Step down...Step

Am I Breaking down...
Can I break away
Push me away
Make me fall
Just to see
Another side of me
Push me away
You can't see
What I see The other side of me

Fall back on me
I?ll be the strength I need
To save me now
Just come face to face with me
Stay in place you'll be
The first to see
Me heal these wounds
Step down! Step down! Step! Down...down...

I?m not breaking, down...down...
Can I break away
Push me away
Make me fall
Just to see
Another side of me
Push me away
You can't see
What I see
The other side of me

Go!

Fall...can I break away
Push me away
Make me fall
Just to see
Another side of me
Push me away
You can see
What I see
The other side of me

No one can see
Anything on the other side of me
I walk, I crawl
Loosing everything and waiting for the downfall

No one can see
Everything on the other side of me
I walk, I crawl
Loosing everything on the downfall...
Fall...


2.Falling Apart

I slipped away
Further from you
Trying to find what is real
You're somebody else
That I never knew
And someone that I can't feel

I shove it away
I keep it in me
Is this what it takes
To keep me alive?
So you take me
And you break me
And you see I'm falling apart
Complicate me
And forsake me
You push me out so far
There's no other feeling

I slipped away
Closer to me
The only thing that is real
I'm falling behind
And now I can see
Your absence helps me heal

I shoved you away
I keep you for me
Is this what it takes
To keep me alive?
So you take me
And you break me
And you see I'm falling apart
Complicate me
And forsake me
You push me out so far
There's no other feeling
There's no other feeling

Spread, Spread out...
Spread, Spread out...

So you take me
And you break me
And you see I'm falling apart
Complicate me
And forsake me
You push me out so far

And you take me
And you break me
And you see I'm falling apart
There's no more feeling
There's no more feeling
There's no more feeling


3.Hover

You take me down
Further inside of me
Now I'm fading out
I can barely see
I hover

To see you leave again
It's over
And it kills me to watch you descend
To the end

Can't think straight
Shutting me out
Closing me out
Taking me out
Leaving me out

You take me down
Further inside of me
Now I'm fading out
I can barely see
As I hover

To see you caving in
I'm undone
And to say it's the last time again
It's the end

Can't think straight
Shutting me out
Closing me out
Taking me out
Leaving me out

You take me down
Further inside of me
Now I'm fading out
I can barely see
As I hover

I'm watching you descend
I'm hovering instead
I'm watching you descend
I'm hovering instead

You take me down
Further inside of me
Now I'm fading out
I can barely see
I hover
I hover
I hover
I hover ? again


4.Running From Me

Say a prayer for me
Cause I can barely breath
I'm suffering and I can't take it
Because of me
No one will ever see
This side of me
If I don't make it

It's like I can't wake up
It's like I cant get up
It's like I can't remember who I used to be
Am I running from you
Or am I running from me

It's like I can't wake up
It's like I cant get up
It's like I can't remember who I used to be
Am I running from you
Or am I running from me

Clear a path for me
Because I can barely see
I'm stumbling and I can't shake it
It's up to me
To save myself from me
My enemy
But I can't face it

It's like I can't wake up
It's like I can't get up
It's like I can't remember who I used to be
Am I running from you
Or am I running from me

It's like I can't wake up
It's like I can't get up
It's like I can't remember who I used to be
Am I running from you
Or am I running from me

I'm breaking now
I'm breaking now
I'm breaking now
I'm breaking now
I'm breaking out
Here I come, here I come, here I come
Can't! Wake! Up
Cause I'm not around
Am I running from you
Or am I running from me?

It's like I can't wake up
It's like I can't get up
It's like I can't remember who I used to be
Am I running from you
Can't face myself
I'm just left with the suffering.


5.Slipping Away

You say hold on
But I feel like
I'm slipping away
And you say hold on
But it feels like
I'm slipping away

I won't let you down
The words you said to me
It's echoing the sound
Of what would never be

I'm standing here alone
The memories remain
The same familiar home
But nothing looks the same
And I'm standing here alone
Can't tell if I'm awake
Reality is gone
In a dream I can't escape

You say
Hold on
But I feel like
I'm slipping away
And you say
Hold on
But it feels like
I'm slipping away

I'm getting through it now
I guess it's plain to see
That everything I am
Is not everything you need

I'm standing here alone
Can't tell if I'm awake
Reality is gone
In the dream I will escape

You say
Hold on
But I feel like
I'm slipping away
And you say
Hold on
But it feels like
I'm slipping away

I'm standing here alone
Can't tell if I'm awake
And it feels like I'm slipping away

Reality is gone
In a dream I can't escape
And I feel like I'm slipping away


6.Figure 8

See that face from across the room
And I can feel you're nothing
Show your fear it's not hard to see
Intention's pale it's blinding

Stop, stop from place I've been
No good for the shape I'm in
I'm slow to the race you win
You wanna take me out

Stop, stop with you face off in
My space and the wicked descend
No taste for the place I'm in
But you change too

Stop! Stop!

And I'm all you need to know
And I'm everywhere you go
No one can save you now
When it all comes around
And I'm everything you see
And I'm what you'll never be
No one can save you now
When it all comes around

Show your face and stare at me
And I can feel you glaring
Showing up and preparing me
And you're the one I'll bury

Stop, stop from place I've been
No good for the shape I'm in
I'm slow to the race you win
You wanna take me out

Stop, stop with your face off in
My space and the wicked descend
No taste for the place I'm
But you change too

Stop! Stop!

And I'm all you need to know
And I'm everywhere you go
No one can save you now
When it all comes around
And I'm everything you see
And I'm what you'll never be
No one can save you now
When it all comes around

Take you down
Leave you fallen faceless hurt
And leave you down
Fall break you now
Leave you fallen faceless hurt
And take you down
Wanna take you down!

I am all you need to know
I am everywhere you go
No one can save you now
When it all comes around
I am everything you see
I am what you'll never be
No one can save you now
When it all comes around


7.The Fear

Standing here
I'm cold inside with fear
And I can't feel my soul
Take me in
I'm yours again
For awhile - just like the last time

Lead me from the fear
And I won't leave you here
There's a way out
There's a way out
There's a way from here (believe)

Lead me from the fear
And I won't leave you here
There's a way out
There's a way out
There's a way from here (believe)

I feel weak
And I'm slowly losing touch
With what is left in me
Take me in
I'm yours again
For awhile - just like the first time

Lead me from the fear
And I won't leave you here
There's a way out
There's a way out
There's a way from here (believe)

Lead me from the fear
And I won't leave you here
There's a way out
There's a way out
There's a way from here (believe)

And I need you
To keep me here
I'm starting over again

And I need you
To keep me here
I'm starting over again

Lead me from the fear
And I won't leave you here
There's a way out
There's a way out
There's a way from here (believe)

Lead me from the fear
And I won't leave you here
There's a way out
There's a way out
There's a way from here (believe)

There's a way out
There's a way out
There's a way from here (believe)

There's a way out
There's a way out
There's a way from here. (believe)


8.Deeper Into You

I feel it eating at me
While you still drown me
And cross the line over
And over again
It's all around me
Now I'm here
Cause of you

Now I'm falling
I'm falling out
Cause of you
Now I'm falling
Deeper into you

Tired of hating myself
I can't let me
Cross the line for her
I'm not me when I dream
There's someone else in me
That I fear
Cause of you

Now I'm falling
I'm falling out
Cause of you
Now I'm falling
Deeper into you

I'm not me when I dream
I'm not me when I dream, anymore
Because of you

Now I'm falling
I'm falling out
Cause of you
Now I'm falling
I'm falling out
Cause of you
Now I'm falling
I'm falling out
Cause of you
Now I'm falling
Deeper into you


9.Drop To Zero

Drop! to zero
Drop!
I feel boxed in
And trapped inside
Feels like the worlds closing in
And there's nowhere to hide

This time nothing feels right to me
I'm sinking deeper within
I'll wait for you to loose sight of me
Before I suffer again

I feel strapped down
While you feed the disease
I'm lying face on the ground
It's happening again
For the whole world to see

This time nothing feels right to me
I'm sinking deeper within
I'll wait for you to loose sight of me
Before I suffer again

Drop! Drop! Drop! To zero, drop! Drop!
Now I'm so far away
This time nothing feels right to me
I'm sinking deeper within
I'll wait for you to loose sight of me
Before I suffer again
Now I'm so far away
Now I'm so far away
Now I'm so far away


10.Finally

I'm beneath
I'm crawling out
On my knees
I can hear what you said
Echoing in my head
And I'm losing...myself
Now I'm cold on the floor
And I don't care anymore
'Cause it's over...it's over

I can feel, I can feel
Like it's real, like it's real
I can feel, I can feel

I can finally feel
So I guess it's over now
And you broke me down somehow
Now I'm faltering
I can see - I can be
I can leave and shut you out

I can feel, I can feel
Like it's real, like it's real
I can feel, I can feel
Like it's real, like it's real

Underneath
As I slowly drown
Finally
I can hear what you said
Echoing in my head
And I'm losing myself

I can feel, I can feel
Like it's real, like it's real
I can feel, I can feel

I can finally feel
So I guess it's over now
And you broke me down somehow
Now I'm faltering
I can see - I can be
I can leave and shut you out
I can feel, I can feel
Like it's real, like it's real

I'm shaking deep inside
I'm having trouble breathing
I need somewhere to hide
Away cause I am healing
I'm having trouble breathing
Tomorrow I am healing

So I guess it's over now
And you broke me down somehow
Now I'm faltering
I can see - I can be
I can leave and shut you out

I can feel, I can feel
Like it's real, like it's real
I can feel, I can feel
Like it's real, like it's real


11.Take It All

Looking up from underneath
As low as we are
Nothing looks the same to me
Am I deceived?
I stand and watch myself from somewhere else
Something I don't want to see

Take it all
So I'm left with nothing at all
Have it all
As I'm learning how to fall
As I'm learning how to fall

Standing up from underneath
As low as we are
Things aren't what they used to be
Was I deceived?
I stand and watch myself like someone else
Something I don't want to see

Take it all
So I'm left with nothing at all
Have it all
Cause I'm learning how to fall
Cause I'm learning how to fall

Why don't you...fall
Fall...

Take it all
So I'm left with nothing at all
Have it all
Cause I'm learning how to fall

I can't trust what I see
I can't tell if it's me
It is changing

Take it all
Cause I'm learning how to fall
Cause I'm learning how to fall